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Name: Melissa
Birthday: 4/30/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Music. A day without music is a day wasted. Laughter. Gotta have some sunshine in your life, right? OoH! Eating is not only a necessity, I've made it into a hobby! Well, I guess that's about it for now...
Expertise: I'm good at being a bum. At home, at school, at work... anywhere!
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Member Since:
8/5/2003
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| right now i'm sitting at the receptionist's desk at work. the good thing is that it gives me an opportunity to catch up on blogging or just writing in my journal. things have just been so busy that any downtime is usually spent on watching some kind of show. in february, i have this amazing weekend! we have thursday the 12th off, then work on friday the 13th, and then monday the 16th off. Soooo.... i asked to have friday the 13th off to have my vacation and bam! i have a super amazing 5 day weekend! it's gonna be great, just because i won't be here. the bad thing is the whole office politics crap in addition to doing work that is actually a step back from what i was doing at my last job. the good thing is that i have health benefits (i didn't last time) and a stable job that doesn't seem to be in danger... at least i'm praying it isn't. working for the state has its perks, like having a ridiculous amout of paid holidays. (there are 13 per year) although the economy is horrible, the courts have seemed to make adjustments so it wouldn't impact personnel too much. the only thing that sucks is because are state budget is in shambles (not even passed or anything!) i may not get a paycheck next month, and just an IOU. to me that's just sad. people are trying to push their own agenda so much that we STILL don't have a budget and it'll impact more people than it needs to. what is going on? everything seems to be falling apart around here. no budget, both state and federal economies suck, the middle east is just flaring with rage, and riots are breaking out around the bay area. i swear, there's been so many protests around this area in the past 3 months. since i work near city hall AND the UN plaza, i run into a few of them. the really bad ones are in oakland where it starts out as a peaceful protest and turns into a riot. that makes no sense to have a riot and vandalize stores and neighborhoods that have people who aren't involved with the problem to begin with. again, what is going on? right now i'm a lil envious of those still in school. school seems to be a safe haven, that "bubble". good news is that i can just be partially welcomed back into the academia world. i'll be taking 2 classes - accounting and developmental psych - in a couple of weeks. i think it's good to get back on the horse. taking both classes online was sooo tempting, but instead i just had one of them be online and the other in a more "traditional" method. night classes will be insane! 1 night a week for 3 hours... 6:30 to 9:30pm. just the books alone for both classes is about almost triple the tuition cost. omg! i hope it's totally worth it. on a different note, i want to go to greece! i watched mama mia! last night and i was so jealous that the cast got paid to have so much fun! you know, i think scary movies would also be fun to make, but just like fantasy/sci-fi ones, the actors said they would have to react to a piece of tape... i don't think that i would be really good at that... anyway it's friday. TGIF for real. can't wait til 5! | | |
| today was a busy day! i never wake up before 10 on the weekends, but today i did. right off the bat it was all about rearranging, cleaning, fixing, helping out, etc. etc. since my brother is soon to completely move into his apartment, big items are being removed from the house. today it was the old sofabed that my parents have had since at least 1980. the sofa he was supposed to have in his apt. was too big to fit into his apt! we tried all the angles and even putting it through the window to no avail.
today was also the day that we decorated our house! i did the tree again, my mom did the other parts of the house, and my dad set up the lights on both floors. he forgot to put the 2 deer on our lawn, so the christmasy pics of the house will be up when everything's complete.
as i was decorating the tree, i found that in the course of a little over 2 months, there are 3 holidays that make me think of a different point in time. these 3 holidays are of course, thanksgiving, christmas, and new year's. i've noticed that during thanksgiving, it's focused on the NOW - what we're thankful for, and our blessings leading up to the present. it's one of those moments where you stop to take a breather and a step back to see the big picture as of that time. Christmas, at least for me, has always made more nostalgic than anything - all the good memories of the PAST. everything about the christmas season (except for the shopping) usually brings me into a time warp of when i was a kid still excited for what santa would bring me and presents that were just calling for me to rip open! things were carefree and family oriented. i felt like that today when i was putting up the tree. then i remembered liwanag because christmas is a time that makes me feel more childlike. (then i bust into action song! jk.) Now that brings us to New Year's. of course, this is more about the FUTURE. resolutions galore! it's all about looking ahead and trying to make the mold you will pour yourself into to make a better person. it's amazing how a span of a little less than 2 months can make me think so much about life.
some things never change, like sleeping at a ridiculously late hour (like 3:38 am) on the weekends.
i feel a blog roll or a picture spam from thanksgiving coming up...
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| ...and i actually just mean the magic mic. right now i'm actually blogging from the living room/dining room (family room?!) of my house. i believe this is a first! nothing says a friday night party like the parents, auntie, and uncle singing with the magic mic with the side of first rains of the autumn season. there were many records that were broken tonight in terms of the magic mic. my uncle can't get highter than a 79. his lowest score was a 9. my dad beat it with his score of 8. AND!!! they sang the whole song! how they managed those scores really boggles my mind. i think it's cuz they switch keys so often or something. my mom is the current reigning champion with 98, with my dad at a close 95. i don't like to sing in front of people without a choir, so i'm sitting this one (and all of them) out with my auntie. i'm still surprised that #1, my dad's actually singing with them, and #2, they could sing 3 words (or 0 words) and still score an 85, yet they can sing the whole song and manage to get an 8! there's a theory going around that the magic mic loves my mom (since she has the highest score) solely because it's "programmed" to obey/favor the one who bought it. hahah i think it's true. oh wait, my uncle finally beat his best score of 79 and scored an 84. right now they're singing the same song to see who can get the highest. this song of the moment is "edelweiss". my mom is winning with 96. my uncle scored his 84, and my dad just sang the words "edelweiss, edelweiss" and scored a 90 after pressing the stop/quit button. ahhh! my mom made him sing it over and he got a 94! lately all my life has been revolving around is work and tv. i feel so unproductive! i wish i had a group to go to, or maybe even classes to take. i can't bring myself to do anything really productive after dinner because i get so lethargic and i don't want to move. one of the best things to do when you're not moving is watch tv! so many good shows and i'm sooo behind already. right now, everything in my prime viewpoint is a distraction and an inner retreat is needed. maybe just to have a day with meeko (my guitar) and some good books will get me back to a better mindset than the one i have now. so far i've noticed that where i am with my faith correlates to how i am with musical instruments. it seems that the closer i am to Him the better i am with playing what i play. lol i guess this is because i'll want to do a lot more p&w by myself (even if the singing is just in my head sometimes) which enables me to practice/play more. right now i'm trying to get it back. i couldn't play last week - it all sounded horrible. now i'm all about playing Ave Maria from MOTP '06 cuz it almost made me cry. it's such a beautiful song - each part is awe-inspiring from the SATB to the piano and guitar parts. i think i'll watch it on youtube right now lol. sorry this is long and lame. i feel as if there's so much to say but i can't say anything - expressions are suspended so i can't convey my thoughts without making them look incoherent. i've always had an urge to blog but i end up not doing it because i feel like there's nothing significant to put on this, lol hence this entry. i guess i'm better at having an actual conversation with a person. so i'm caught at the crossroads between switching to blogger. i use it for a lot of other things already... livejournal is almost officially abandoned. i don't think i'll update that anymore but i'd like to keep the rest of the memories. the idea of blog rebirth sounds really temtping but i suppose i'm not ready to let go of xanga yet. until next time. congrats for reading my ramblings and making it this far! | | |
| damn straight. my coworker's daughter, kayla, beat me in bowling tonight. actually she beat a few other people too and nabbed the 3rd place position out of 9 people today. she did the granny style and the ball would roll in at like .1 mph and then the ball would knock over at least 6 pins! geez! i tried to stick to my guns and do it the normal way, but i think i should've tried the kayla style at least once. the first game we had, kayla's ball would always get stuck or just be hella slow, and her frame would go by in like 5 minutes as opposed to 2. work is going ok. i think last time i updated this i was at my last job at genentech. now i work for the state - the first district court of appeal. yep. state government. it's a bit of a change, but with all the pros and cons, i still don't know if this is a better deal than my last job. at least i have a sense of permanancy and stability in lieu of the unstable life as a temp. i make roughly the same but with benefits so it's cool. being full time is definitely different from being a student and i'm still debating exactly how much i miss being a student. i kinda want to go back to school, but i don't know what i want to take. i'm still trying to choose a path, but i get impatient to see what path He has in store for me. at least taking this job, i'm exposed to juvenile dependency cases in which social workers are instrumental to the case. juvenile dependency cases are when social workers intervene and separate the parent from the child(ren) because of abuse, neglegence, etc. the court gives the parents every chance to improve the home environment and reunite the family. but if the parents can't care for them, the social worker (and the agencies) have to determine what is best for the kids. i wanted to do something like this but it's really challenging considering i don't really know if this is for me. it's one of those jobs where you give everything and although monitarily you don't get as properly compensated for your services, it's a rewarding job knowing you've rescued kids from broken homes and possibly taken them to a place that can provide a brighter future for them. also, the potential death threats are a little discouraging. as for my routine media craze updates, i'll just say that i'm really into disney and it's a little unnerving how gung ho i am about the careers of selena gomez and demi lovato. *sigh*. dancing with the stars has captured my mondays and the rest of the schedule is to be determined! so much to catch up on! story of my life. ok i think this one is long enough. i shall update tomorrow, hopefully. | | |
| I’m breakin’ dishes (up in here) all night (uhh-huh) I ain’t gon’ stop until I se po-lice lights (uh-huh) /rihanna song. So I haven’t done the infamous 6 facts yet, and I wanted to finish that before I go blog about other things, cuz i have a LOT to update about.. 1. I used to get in trouble a lot when I was in elementary school before I moved to where I live now. Yes, that’s right. I used to get in trouble for talking too much in class, for swearing, for bringing a toy gun to school. Yeah. Hard core! I was a G back in the day, living in a ghetto neighborhood. Ok jk about that last statement. But I really did get in trouble for talking too much in class (it was kindergarten and my first day of school! She almost failed me too. Jerk). As for the swearing part, I was accused of saying the “s-word” when I actually said “shut up”. So I got in trouble. Once during girl scouts I was having an argument with a friend and I said the infamous rhyme, “so so suck your toe, all the way to Mexico, when you’re there, cut your hair, and put it in your underwear”. She didn’t have a rebuttle so she went to the teacher and said that I said “a bad word”. What a friend she was. And the toy gun was a blue plastic one with clear sparks inside when you pull the trigger a lot. So it’s not like people thought I was gonna shoot anyone. It was the size of the palm of your hand! But it was contraband and I never got it back. 2. Me and Cielo used to write short stories together. I’m pretty sure it was the summers of 7th and(?) 8th grade when me and cielo started to write short stories. They were really parodies of movies that we saw and we used our friends as the characters. Well, the thing is they were always what we classified as stupid/funny/scary. An example would be the movie Disturbing Behavior. Cielo started the story and made it like the movie, but instead we called it “Disturbing People”. Later on we started writing a horror/murder mystery/thriller. We called it “Scary Story”. We had the plot all lined up and chose the killer, the victims, and the hero. Of course, we made me the hero with “cool wounds” (cut on the cheek, gash on the arm, like in the action movies) and Cielo got to die a heroic death. Hahah We also had more potential titles than we did stories. Parody titles…like “Stupid Kids” was the title for “Baby Geniuses”. Ah, good times. Now me and cielo collaborate with other things. 3. I was pretty sporty from 4th grade to high school. Crazy isn’t it? Now I’m just a bum collecting fat in unwanted areas. I used to LOVE to run for our weekly relays in elementary school (the one I wasn’t hella dangerous in – the new one). And I thought I was pretty fast. (I beat the boys in 2nd grade too! They won’t admit it though) In middle school I played basketball for the school (but not very well) and actually really loved track & field. Got 3rd place for high jump in intermurals, and our team got 2nd for the relay, and first for volleyball and basketball. And this was over the course of 2-3 years. I actually used to run the 50 yard dash in 6.7 seconds and the short turkey trot (a mile-ish with hills) in 6 min, 23 sec. then something happened in high school and I was hella slow (ran the 50 yards in 8-8.7 seconds) but I built up endurance. Now I just suck. 4. I am a bit of a gamer girl Growing up I only had contact with 2 cousins – they were brothers. So since they were 2 and 3 years older than me (my bro and one of my cousins are the same age) I didn’t really have a choice of hanging out with girl cousins or someone really my age, so I was an outsider in some sorts. But since I did hang out with them all they did was play video games! We’ve played on so many consoles together – the computer, Nintendo, Sega, Sega Saturn, Playstation, Game Cube, N64, Game Boy, Nintendo DS, XBOX, XBOX360 PS2 and I think that’s it… there may be more… But I LOVE video games and I collect the Final Fantasy series (I still have to buy the newer ones) and Grand Theft Auto games. But right now my favorite game of all time is Guardian Heroes, and it was only released on Sega Saturn. I’m about to go to ebay and get me a Saturn and that game! 5. I have a reading splurge every summer As most of you know, I’m not too big on reading – ESPECIALLY if it’s for school. (It’s uncommon that I like a class book enough to read all of it) But every summer for some reason, i splurge on reading! I read at least 5 books 2 super long ones, but most commonly I’ll read a complete series of books. This summer is no exception – I read all 4 books of the sisterhood of the traveling pants, the 5 people you meet in heaven, and 3 other books I don’t remember. Now I’ve started to read the Twilight series and I should be done before september. Yeah, hard to believe huh? 6. My friends and I used to pick fights online Yep. It was really baddddddd!!! In 8th grade, my friends and I would go to my other friend’s house and hang out. Since AOL was all the rage (and we didn’t know any better at the time) we would go on her screen name and go to random chat rooms. We usually messed with people who’d ask our a/s/l. hahah Sometimes we’d go to the really racialized ones and join in. I remember that when we went to this one room, “viets vs. flips” we were there making hella racially derogatory remarks and cussing up a storm there and just putting all sorts of “yo momma” jokes/obscenities. Other people would join in and then we’d all be just fighting online. It was hilarious but really offensive! Hahah not quite the behavior of a future Asian American Studies major. Ok that was soooo late and SOOO long so I hope I didn’t bore anyone to death. I will now tag… (even though they probably won’t do it) Alina Eileen B Vi Victor (Still waiting on you, man!) Abby Anne Bananne Sarahface Jen Sumcad/Jennie Sherry Krystle B. | | |
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